so long to the big red white and blue

It's becoming final. It's that time where I begin to realize that trying to healthily wrap up seasons is more and more of my reality.
I am leaving all that I am familiar with and love here in Dallas again. Family, best friends, new friends, and things that are familiar to navigate through.
It's all coming to a close, I mean as far as this season of my life. The waiting before the...


Two nights ago I think was the night it really hit me, like it does every time before I leave. That I have a family, and extended family that loves me immensely and to always just pick up and leave, not only hurts my heart, but it's hard on sisters and parents who we miss living chunks of this life this life together.


I told one of my best friends Taylor the other night that I just became overwhelmed with the idea that this potentially will be the rest of my life. Picking up and leaving. Meeting people and having only 6 months to spend with them. This idea overwhelms me at times.


It's a funny thing to come to terms with at times, that I have this life that is in constant motion, constant change. Now, for me... I LOVE THIS. Just the excitement of the everyday unknown, but at the same time, the relational side of me hurts in that time. But the best part I think is that, it has never stopped me from loving people deeply, even though I know there will probably be a goodbye nearby.


Now, i've got to stop this sappy-ness.
Because yes, the sadness of leaving again hurts, but at the same time I have oh so much to look forward to!
I was talking to Aleesha yesterday (a regular in my phone) who is on staff, and the amount of times that we laugh in a conversation is outrageous to count. I have a new family in Pismo and THAT IS EXCITING!! That I get to walk back to a place that I once went not knowing a single person. Now it's a moment that I get to walk back into with some of my great friends. I get to continue to live life with people that I love so much, and that challenge and encourage me is incredible!


I was trying to go through my pictures and just pull out some "people missed" photos and then I realized that there are A LOT of people to be missed! So here are just a few highlighted. (insert sad song here)

this bundle of joy. my family

Reagan (I know you will DIE when you see this picture)

Hailey (Lemmy)

Taylor

p.s. we have ZERO pictures together. cool.

Kellye 

Grandma&Grandpa aka Alisa

Sarah (my cousin) just left this morning to do her DTS in Australia!!

So there are A LOT more that I could insert here, but I just gave a few examples. Lots of family and friends. People that have spoken such love and truth into my life. 

These are the people, that are fresh on my heart and mind. 

I've been able to spend the past 2 days in College Station, as Jesus provided through one of my dear friends the money for me to be able to come to be refreshed before I leave for Pismo by some of my best friends.

All in all to say, goodbye Texas for a little while! And i'm excited for this new season in California!!

p.s. the next time that I blog will be from my new home! :) NOW THAT'S EXCITING! 

Psalm 16:11

For You will make known to me the path of life,

In Your presence is FULLNESS of joy,

and in Your right hand are pleasures forever.

the name eunice

She is a unique woman. 
I was looking up names for my car and it came down to 2 names. Adah and Eunice. 
And yes, while Adah is much sweeter to say, Eunice just instantly had a connection to my heart.
I was looking up women in the Bible and the names and meanings and their stories. Both had pretty interesting stories, but Eunice's was something special.


She's mentioned in Acts, and then in 2 Timothy 1 saying, " when I call to remembrance the genuine faith that is in you, which dwelt first in your grandmother Lois and your mother Eunice, and I am persuaded is in you also."


Her name means happily conquering. 
What makes her unique, set apart, is her genuine faith. A faith so true, so pure.
She is Timothy's mother. The woman who raised Timothy to be such a man of Jesus.
She accomplished the task set before her, under difficult circumstances.


Eunice was raised in a Jewish home. Both of Eunice's parents were Jewish, as well as Eunice. But Eunice is a Greek name. In this time the adoption of Gentile names by the Jews was not as uncommon, for the lived amongst each other.  It was also common, the children of religious parents living in an irreligious culture tend to drift from faith and values of the parents.


Sound familiar? Us running away from the values we were taught, and rebelling, is not a new thing. 


Eunice when she was younger, hit some of those same rough patches. In her teenage life she walked away from all the faith she had. Pursuing a life pleasing to her. She married a Greek man. Her violation was not so much her marriage to someone outside of Judaism but that he was an unbeliever.


But then she had a child. She had a wake up call. They had to raise a child. But now, based on what? Because clearly their morals and beliefs were different.


She committed herself to teach Timothy the word and example the truth and wisdom of
the Bible, even if she would not be allowed to do it in a culturally Jewish way.
Along with that, she committed to be faithful to her husband. She made the decision that even in the circumstances she ended up in, she wanted to respect her husband and walk in the situation given as she was taught. 


In that time, when the young daughters began having children of their own, it was their opportunity to step away from the control of their own mothers and begin to do things their way. To say the least, the mothers and daughters were in a lot of battle over control.


Once again, not a new thing.


That's what makes Eunice so cool. She knew she couldn't raise Timothy on her own so she called on her mom, knowing that together her mother Lois and her could work together for the good of Timothy. Her mother laid aside all the ways that Eunice had continually run away and agreed.


1 Timothy 3: 14-17
 But you must continue in the things which you have learned and been assured of, knowing from whom you have learned them, and that from childhood you have known the Holy Scriptures, which are able to make you wise for salvation through faith which is in Christ Jesus.  All Scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness, that the man of God may be complete, thoroughly equipped for every good work.


Then she handed over the main role of her teaching Timothy, to the guidance of mentors and men of the church, like Paul. 


So Lois, Eunice, and Timothy were there to hear Paul's gospel message the first time he came to
their town as a missionary.  They were so firmly grounded in the Word of God that when they finally did trust Jesus as their Messiah and received a complete life change through the Holy Spirit, they each had a wisdom and maturity which enabled them to teach and counsel others.


Gotta love this woman.


It's just a story of Jesus once again using real life situations to show His glory. A situation that was so caught up in this world, that He so beautifully allured to Himself.


Isn't He beautiful?


If you can't tell, I love stories. Jesus speaks to me so much in stories. I think it's because I can read them and re-read them over and over and connect something different, learn something new.
That's how I feel about this story. Hence why I named my car Eunice. There are so many more stories to be told and re-told.


This woman has faith that shook her circumstances, a faith that was so bold and so rooted that she raised a son that followed Jesus so beautifully.

Eunice.

Meet Eunice.

Eunice has quite the story. Now clearly, this is not my car, but it looks just like her. I figured for where we will both be within 2 weeks, the palm trees were an appropriate background.

This blog may be kind of long (I mean, most of mine are) but she has an incredible story, which is worth your time to read. This will be a story within a story. How the idea of even getting her came about, me purchasing her, and then how the name Eunice was just the perfect fit.

Before I went to India, God told me to sell my car to help pay for the trip. So I did.

Then while I was on my DTS and realizing that I would be back in Pismo to be on staff, I would probably need a car because of the ministry that I want to do outside of just the Pismo area and the ways that I can help serve the DTS and having a small group and lalala...it goes on. So I began to pray for a car, knowing that I did NOT have the money to buy one. 

Jesus told me that He would give me one. Ok, awesome Jesus! He told me to pray for the people that would give it to me, that they would encounter His love in new and refreshing ways through the situation. He told me to pray, and pray until something happened. 

So as I got home this summer and began to support raise, and a car just looked so unlikely. About 2 weeks ago, His faithfulness once again blew me away. I literally just sat back and watched Him touch everything and be in everyone I encountered. It was incredible.

My mom had the idea of having a garage sale and to put that towards my move to Pismo. During the week before the garage sale I had been car searching, and just trusting with crazy things to happen, like I usually do. The garage sale came, with so many people donating to it. My mom, my grandma, and I threw together a garage sale in 2 days. I raised over $1000. Yes. WHAT?! That number figure will be important later on in the story.

3 days before the garage sale, I had called a dealership because I wanted to ask about their car. 

Here is how this first conversation went:

Me: "Hi, I was wondering if this car is still available"

Dan: "Umm...hold on let me check..."

(I was looking at the car online and realized in mid conversation it was a manual. crap. I can't drive that!)

Dan: "Yes! It's still available!"

Me: "Ok thanks! Bye!" 

And I hung up.

Then here is where it gets humorous. Dan (the dealer) called back and told me he had never quite had a phone call like that. He asked me if I had questions about the car or wanted to come out and test drive it? I began to laugh and told him the manual thing was going to be a problem. He started laughing, and told me he can't drive manual either, but turns out its actually an automatic and was just listed wrong. I knew this was good from the start. 

I made the drive, about 45 minutes away, to check it out.

On the drive there I was praying for discernment because car dealers can be....well dishonest. I am a young girl and gullible. Jesus told me to tell Dan (the dealer) what my job is. My thought was... seriously? SUCH a pity card. "umm hi, i'm a missionary, pity me cause clearly I have no money."

He was persistent. So I obeyed.

I pulled up in my incredible white mini van that my grandparents were so gracious to let me use for the summer. He came around the corner as I was walking up to the door and he just started laughing. 

He said, "Sweet mini van!" 

"Ok, buddy, listen. My grandparents were so gracious to let me use it this summer, hence why I am here to buy a new car!"

Then right away he asked me what I do.

There it was. This was my perfect segue to give him my job description.

So I told him, and his jaw dropped. He had this grin on his face and he came over and gave me a hug. He just had the genuine heart that radiated Jesus and was so excited to see young people pursue Jesus.

I walked around the car and we were just talking details. We had a few mishaps where I got the seatbelt stuck in the door and then couldn't get it open. It was just a time full of laughter as he was in awe that I even knew what to ask or look for. I love the joy of Jesus!

We get in the car to test drive it and he forgets to tell me the brakes are sensitive. So I hit the brakes and then our heads got a little joggle. We laugh and precede to the highway. 

The cruise control was our next tackle. Eunice has some odd quirks about her. We were laughing because neither of us could figure out the cruise. We almost hit a few things as both of us had our hands  on the wheel and me trying to hit the cruise while going about 45 on the highway... 

Then I look over and on the right passenger side window there was a white ghost sticker? He said it was there when they bought the car and he just HAD to leave it. He said it reminds us that the Spirit is always with us haha. Throughout the whole car ride we just talked about the goodness of Jesus and how faithful He is, and about our families...they are both quite large. Not your average car dealer. I knew I instantly made a friend.

We get back to the dealership and I just told him, bottom line, its out of my price range. He said, we'll talk, we will make this work. And he wasn't lying, him and his dad began to do everything they could to help me.

Come to find out after sitting down and talking with him and his dad, he graduated from Texas A&M (WHOOP!) and also started a missions organization while he was there. No wonder the missions part was important for me to mention.

I brought back my dad to check out the car a few days later. He loved it. We all got in the car (me, dad, and Dan) and just talked about Jesus and family and life. My dad loved the guy! 

We then sat down to talk numbers. Dan crunched numbers for like 20 minutes and he looks up at me with tears in his eyes saying there is just no way. There is no way if the dealership is going to make a profit, that he can come to my price. 

I had to say no. I had to walk away because I just literally didn't have the money.

On the drive home I just cried and told my dad that I felt so uneasy from walking away. Just defeated, because it was more than just a car but I had started to build trust in these guys. I just knew I was supposed to buy this car.

Then Dan sent me a text saying, "I wanted to tell you how awesome you and your dad are. You exude God's presence. I'm blessed to know you"

Done. I'm sold.

I knew that my God is not defined by a dollar bill. So I knew I just had to trust. I knew that I could NOT deny a story of God's incredible faithfulness because of money. I decided that I was going to call him back in the morning and just tell him that I am trusting Jesus and I want to be able to tell this story to everyone that comes in my car.

Before I had a chance, that morning he called me at work and told me that he talked to his dad (he's had this dealership for 38 years) and they were going to take my price because it was their way of supporting me in what I'm doing! They liked me and wanted to be apart of me getting to California.

EEEEEEKKKK!

We went back and picked up my car the next day. The money made from the garage sale paid the EXACT amount for the down payment. 

There is many more small stories of funny run ins with this dealership and stories that make this friendship between our family and theirs, but you can ask if you are really interested.

Now i'm just trusting that Jesus will provide the rest. Cause this story just exudes Him as a loving Father.

I am no where near paying it off, but I got a jump start through my grandparents giving me the mini van to sell. It sold within 2 days!!! God is so faithful.

I love Eunice because she gets to be a constant reminder and instrument of Jesus' love and faithfulness. We have so much potential together.

And yes, the ghost sticker is still there. Dan signed it.

Now if anyone, or even you, ever ride in Eunice, you are riding in a car that shows that the faith we have in Jesus is REAL. That He is a God that loves and is so faithful to His promises.

This is already really long, so in the next blog i'll explain the name :)

LOVE each of you dearly. I'm impressed if you made it to the bottom of this blog, cause it's long...

yes, this is what I like to call, a mess. but packing for a new life, a new place, and old friends is ALWAYS fun. can you tell how anxious I am to get to pismo?
and i'll admit, it's been longer than a week...




and what's kinda funny, is like I said in my last blog... all of this will end up in a landfill.
well, maybe not funny, kinda makes me wanna only take myself in the saturn. but since Jesus' good grace, He let's me enjoy my landfill. still convicting and worth re-prioritizing though.

judgement

As anyone knows, that has ever raised support, your view on money completely changes in the process. It's harder to spend money on things that are not of utmost value. And by that I mean, we begin to really re-prioritize where our money goes and what we view as "worth" our money. Living on a budget and knowing that people are pouring the money Jesus has blessed them with into my life, I want to honor them and be a good steward of the money that I have been given. And above honoring the giver, I want to honor Jesus who from all blessings flow.

I was reading an article in Relevant magazine and it began to really put into words the things that I have been struggling to see and so frustrated watching our consumer mentality twist.

"With a budget, you’re spending everything on paper, on purpose, before the month begins. And if you believe you are simply a steward of everything that passes through your hands—that it all belongs to God anyway—then you understand budgeting really isn’t an option. It’s a necessity."

-Relevant magazine

A few days ago, I was sitting in a coffee shop in a very, what I call, "outer appearance" area, also known as a place that spends more money in a week that I will see in my entire months budget. And I will be honest with you, I sat there and just began to have a breakdown. Because I began to realize that the deception, the veil that is covering our eyes, the one that Jesus came to remove through truth...we have a completely skewed idea of money. But in all honesty, it was more than just a breakdown, it went MUCH deeper. I began to judge each person that walked in there based on what they ordered and how much they spent on a cup or cups of coffee. I began to realize that my judgement, was deeply rooted in hurt by people who say NO to Jesus in giving, and not just to me, but to all the other places that need it as well, and turn their head and spend that money given by Him for what they deem necessary. A life we live beyond what we deserve. I've been hurt and harbored a little bitterness in this process of support raising because I see the opportunities Jesus lays down in front of people to give, but  we think we just can't squeeze that in our budget. And Jesus has had to work and continuously work to remind me that I am at fault too, and to show me that He has given me ways to give and I am slowly learning the freedom I feel and have in Him when I am obedient to give. Not to say that it was an easy process to get me there.

"You’re managing God’s resources, not your own. Thinking about money that way changes your perspective. You go from holding your money with a closed fist to holding it with an open hand."

–Relevant magazine

Then I read this, that I had to take to Jesus on the hearts of people so skewed on what the purpose of money is for. (And please know, that I don't plan on blaming or pointing fingers, but I live in sin as well and so not only have I been guilty of the same things, but Jesus is healing me from my heart having the very same thoughts)

"

Well, Biblically, tithes are supposed to be "first fruits" - so tithes (the church or charities or however you've allocated it) are paid from the first bit of income every month.  If you put the first fruits aside, and then realize the eating out part or the cable part of your budget puts you back, then you need to re-prioritize. "

-comment made from the article in Relevant 

So then, we really begin thinking, if we set those things aside FIRST that He has given us all, we begin to realize that He isn't asking for leftovers, He is asking for the first. THE FIRST. And isn't our God worth it?!

One of my best friends, Lea Fassler, had prayed a prayer over me about a month ago. I printed out the prayer because it was so incredibly powerful to help me remember the truth Jesus has spoken over my life. She said one line that absolutely blew me away at the vulnerability of Jesus.

"Thank you for letting us know you…more than we need!"

He has given us this book out of complete vulnerability. And for that He deserves the same from us. When we are honest and expose where our money goes and what we choose to do with that BLESSING, we live in complete vulnerability. Money is a very vulnerable thing. But Jesus set that example, and aren't we to be, everyday shaped more like Him?

“Do whatever You want, God, but don't touch this,” then you're guilty of idolatry. -Matt Chandler 

"...we are a tool in the hands of God to right everyone else's wrongs.  And we view ourself 

in that circle, even in the Evangelical circles where it's our job to correct everyone's theology, it's our 

job to tell them how to raise their kids.  And in so doing, we neglect our own relationship with Christ, 

pressing into Christ ourself, knowing Christ deeply ourself.  Instead, we're just trying to make sure 

everyone else is." -Matt Chandler

And aren't we all a little guilty of that? If not more than just a little guilty... cause I know I am.

"Everything that you posses and all that you're currently chasing is one day going to be in a 

landfill.  It does not matter how much you love on it or how much you polish it or whether or not you 

name it.  It does not matter if you wash it on the gentle cycle and don't put it in the dryer.  Everything 

that you have and all that you're currently pursuing is on its way to the junkyard." -Matt Chandler

And yeah, this one is still slapping me in the face.


2 Corinthians 4:16, Therefore we do not lose heart, but though our outer man is decaying (not very pleasant sounding), yet our inner man is being renewed day by day.


Now that is what I want, a refreshing, a renewing day by day.

pismo.

pismo beach. MY NEW HOME!

(photo taken by sarah graham)

Some exciting news:

God has continued to be so faithful for all my needs. Everyday, He has taken care of me. I have talked A LOT about God's faithfulness, because looking back over this summer home, that is what I have learned and grown most confident in. In a way that looks beyond the givers, but to the heart of Jesus. The most exciting thing is that there is more to come! His faithfulness is NEVER ending, praise Jesus!

Just as an update with where I am at with support, and my official move date!!:

Right now with monthly support, I am at $791 a month!! and I am looking for about $200 more before I go! I know that God is faithful to provide, and if you would like to partner with me, there is always time! Just ask :)

And my OFFICIAL starting move date to Cali is September 29th! My mom and I will start early on the 29th and drive all the way to Phoenix, stop to see one of my best friends Cammie, stay with her for a day and then make the last part of the drive to Pismo! 

One thing I have been really meditating on and praying over is Psalm 82. Just praying over this nation the last line, especially, that says, "For it is YOU who possess all the nations!"

It's an interesting Psalm but I feel like in all this transition time and all these changes we are hitting, we pray, "Jesus it is you who have us, none of it is ours." Makes change for His glory, so much more tangible. 

Also, be praying for the YWAM Pismo staff this week. They are on their staff retreat, which is just time to get away and re-connect as a family, to hear some good teachings, and seek new directions for the base! Please be praying for that this week!

p.s. my stories from this past week are coming soon!

rejoice!

It’s been a while since I used this whole blog thing.

Maybe not that long, but in how often I usually update, this has been a while!

I have been INCREDIBLY busy this past week, going to bed around 1 and then waking up at about 6:30. All the sudden I looked at my calendar and thing after thing just kept piling up. I had no idea that I had signed myself up for such a busy week! With support raising prep, speaking, garage sale 2 days in a row mixed in with my last day at work, car shopping, and having a full time job of painting…it all just happened so fast!

I want to say that without the help of my family and Jesus waking me up each morning rejoicing in the simplicity of His goodness I would NOT have been able to do this AT ALL. Cause we all know that in the midst of chaos simplicity is so refreshing.

I finally crashed yesterday. I had a little melt down. I had been drained in every aspect, in the sense that using all the gifts God has given me in one week became overwhelming. Painting and pouring all my relational self into support. So on the way to the carwash with my sister Molly to wash the mini van my grandparents so graciously gave to me (I had to wash it and clean it in order to sell it), I had my meltdown. I just cried and was frustrated and sad and excited all at the same time. My body at this point was running on what little energy I had left. So I asked Molly to pray for me. I knew that I was being attacked; I could feel darkness just creeping in on my weak body. And I knew I couldn’t fight it alone. Molly prayed for me and I could instantly feel the power and energy still in her flow into my body and I just started laughing at how ridiculously weak I was. I was just reminded that when I’m overwhelmed...praise Jesus, when I’m tired and my fleshly body is overwhelmed…praise Jesus. In ALL circumstances I will call on Him and praise Him. I needed to be covered and know that in my weakness He is OVERWHELMINGLY powerful!

I wake up each morning singing His praises because He is so faithful. He provides my needs for that day, and I rejoice because I know that without Him, I would have nothing. Nothing lasting, nothing to fill that heart He gave me to be His.

I can’t wait to tell you all the fun stories later this week of just how cool He is.

Everyday He takes me on an adventure. He opens my eyes to all that around me that is broken and needs His love. And He shows me the beauty of His grace.

email

So I am working on my email list.
This email will be for people who want a monthly update on my life in Pismo!


If you are currently supporting me, you are already added to this list!! If you would like to support me (because I am still in desperate need of this!) I will add you to the list!


How to be added:
Send me your name and email at audreyspurgin@gmail.com


My blog will also be a GREAT way to keep up with me as well! You can type in your email on the side of this blog and get emails when my blog has been updated.


The reason that I will be sending emails rather than snail mail newsletters, is because I can save a lot of money each month! I would have to budget in about $70 more each month in order to send them through the mail. Let's be honest, most of you are much more up to date with your email than what you do with your snail mail. And I know that not ALL of you are this way, but the majority is! So in order to use less money in this area, email will be the answer. And who knows, maybe a couple times a year you will get a fun piece of mail from me to open!


Love each of you.

texas a&m

this little nugget here on the map has been my home for the past week.

college station, tx- texas a&m university.

So as I pull into this little gem of a place, I am anxiously awaiting what this week will look like. It's nearly IMPOSSIBLE to sum it up in a blog that is not entirely too long (which I have never hesitated to do before) but I just want to share God's complete faithfulness and provision.

As I sit here in Hailey and Kendall's room, where I have been living all week, and a dear friend of mine just left my house, I have a moment to really reflect on the week. This week was necessary, was a much needed time of community and just living life with some of my greatest friends. 

I have said all week, that even though college station is not my home, I have relationships here that will continue to bring me back to this place. I never leave here without feeling encouraged, loved, and provided for, oh and of course inspired!

I love these people because they don't let their circumstances stop them from doing God's calling. It's my prayer and my heart to see that flourish here, but its just the beginning of an awakening, an arising, and a calling out from this place that will happen and continue to happen. 

I am literally out of words for how much I have been blessed this week. I can't even describe the love of Jesus without words from the Heavens. It's not based on us and our performance but we are radically set free because of it.
I have spent the week just pouring out my heart to people here, but also getting to hear their hearts poured out onto me. I love that about relationships. I have had so many opportunities this week to just be used, and not always taken full advantage of them, but it reminds me that all we have to do is say yes.
He wants a willing spirit, and open hands. He will do wonders, miracles, life changing things through us, which I have seen so much of this week through you here.
So, yeah, I have spent my days packed with meeting with people I know and with people I don't know just talking Jesus, who is the giver of life. Been able to really have people listen to my heart about where God is taking me, even if it doesn't interest them at all.
I have been provided for from small to big. From Jesus giving me a pen, to having people give me their money, their time, their prayers. All things that we have been given and He has gifted us in, He desires to use and eeeeks at moments when we allow Him to use that. 
I have seen the body this week. The way we were created to function and live together. With a mindset of the Kingdom, saying that ALL is for You, Jesus, all that I am I want to lay at your feet.


I know this may seem a little hard to follow, but honestly to sum up this week, is that I have seen people whole heartedly searching and seeking the things of Jesus, and stepping into obedience. That we are given talents and gifts, and to take those past dreaming, but into reality.


I am set free. I am set free in Jesus. Can we believe that for today?


I am learning and have been learning, that as soon as I let go of control and saying I can to A B C D to get where I wanna be, and just let Jesus move in how He moves... I have been ASTOUNDED at His faithfulness. Do we live lives that require experiencing and knowing that faithfulness?
How do our lives reflect our dependency on Jesus? 


"To the one who sits upon the throne, be blessing and honor and glory and power forever!"


God bless these people and Texas A&M. (how texan does that sound?!)


To the friends of Texas A&M,
Thank you for your faithfulness. Thank you for setting aside your comforts and stepping into a life that requires more faith. Keep going, step more into that. You have encouraged me this week, blessed me this week, and launched me into just a sweet reflection time of how much Jesus loves me and provides for me, through the obedience of His children. Thank you for showing me obedience, and giving me your time. I love each of you and am REALLY out of words for Jesus' provision and continued provision through you. Each of you that I have spent time with this week, have radiated Jesus. Every time I come back, I am always reminded, and carry an even deeper understanding of why He sent me here for that one year.


p.s. this blog, I wish did a better job of sharing this overwhelming joy I have in knowing that Jesus is always taking care of us and always willing to be our Provider.